Barbara Laymon

10/11: Exodus 33:12-23 and Psalm 99  •  Isaiah 45:1-7 and Psalm 96:1-9, (10-13)  •  1 Thessalonians 1:1-10  •  Matthew 22:15-22 

    This week's Matthew reading offers the reader a discordant, discomfiting parable. It's a troubling story where the king – a stand-in for God – enforces expectations. What happened to mercy?!

    To unpack this a little, let's go back and take a look at the story. First, there's a king who invites folk to his son's wedding. All the food is ready – and remember, this is before refrigeration! But the people are all too busy to come. Pausing here for a minute, one does have to wonder about this busy-ness, here in DC, the center of People with Important Things to Do (PITD) with their days – people who (pre-covid) could not show up at the baseball stadium for the opening pitch, mostly because they were still working. Somehow, what folks are reporting during covid is that they're busier than ever! Pre-during-or-potentially-post-covid, it seems that busy-ness may serve a function of some sort in the PITD life, wherever one lives, a function beyond getting work done.

    But back to the story. The king, getting annoyed, tells his staff to go out and find people to come to this wedding. Invite everyone, he tells them. And so they fill the party banquet hall with folks. Not PITD folks, but more ordinary people who were apparently having a great time. Then, one guy is spotted without wedding clothes on. The king asked to see him, and asks him about it gently – using the word friend. He asks how he'd even gotten in, dressed as he was. But the person answers not a word.

    What do clothes have to do with it? Let's assume that the king's servants had made some provisions for these folks they'd brought in, off the streets, so that they could be dressed for the event. If a person avoids dressing for the occasion, what's the implicit message? I'm reminded of the Emmys a few weeks ago. The letter inviting the nominees to the event included the following covid-related request about dressing for an online platform: So, what are you wearing??? Our informal theme for the night is "come as you are, but make an effort!"

    What a great piece of advice. Come as you are; be yourself. But make an effort; avoid helplessness and put some thought into this. Going back to our story, one sees a king trying to have a party for his son, and one person threatening to put a damper on the festivities. The king is trying to tell him that this party is not about him: that he has an obligation to show up dressed for the occasion. Implicit in the king's message is the belief that the person is capable; he can overcome his immaturity. The trouble is that no one – king or otherwise – can do this for him. The opposite is more likely to be true; the more others try to make up for him or to accommodate him, the less likely he is to find his own inner strength of character. Join us, but make an effort!

    Human beings are good at joining; we are a cooperative species whose success is built not on physical strength, but on working together. At a wedding party, cooperation includes dressing appropriately to celebrate the event. At a debate, cooperation means avoiding name-calling and allowing your opponent time to speak. In a pandemic, cooperation involves watching one's own symptoms and being careful to avoid a potential spread of infection even when one is asymptomatic. Still, some side with the rude guy, the one thrown out of the wedding party.

    Whether at a wedding party or in the midst of a pandemic, a person who fails to follow the rules cannot be allowed to bring everyone down. We owe it to each other to insist on some minimum rules of behavior and decorum. Those who put up with the bully are as bad as the bully; a reciprocal process is involved. It is time to be reminded of a king who requires us to honor our responsibility to one another.

Reflections

Morning: What are my responsibilities to others? For myself? 

Evening: How well did I do with managing myself today?

Psalm 106:3 Happy are those who observe justice, who do righteousness at all times.

10/4: Exodus 20:1-4, 7-9, 12-20 and Psalm 19  •  Isaiah 5:1-7 and Psalm 80:7-15  •  Philippians 3:4b-14  •  Matthew 21:33-46

    Winter's coming, and covid's still here. The expression "stay safe," a well-meaning good-bye wish, sums up the problem: how should a person manage herself, both her physical and emotional health, during a global pandemic? And then along comes an answer – a tried and true answer – in the ten commandments from this week's Exodus reading.

    I remember learning the ten commandments as a child during confirmation classes. At the time, they seemed like another set of rules I was expected to follow. Reading them as an adult in this day and time is a different story. They seem almost, well, optional!

    In some way, the optional status has always existed and is part of growing up. Looking at the commandments as though one has a choice about them, and deciding to follow them, is different from a childlike adherence to rules. The choice to follow them is inherent in the framework itself. Starting at the beginning, the first commandment, you shall have no other gods before me, sets a person up to define herself and what god she will follow. However, the pressures of life often lead away from one's best intentions. The worry can be about anything; seeing the situation without letting it take over and rule the day is the challenge.

    When anxiety rules, it becomes its own idol, somehow. The first commandment calls each of us to a reality-based framework: an authentic life built on an honest appraisal of self, one's place in relationships, and one's daily life. An anxiety-driven mindset has the opposite effect. When a person keeps going over events in her mind in an attempt to blame or scapegoat others, or continually beats herself up over her part in something gone wrong, or lets her imagination run away with possible repercussions, she loses the capacity to think clearly. Losing her own intentionality, she has put some other god first: allowing her fears to latch on to herself.

    Bringing fear and anxiety down is not a simple matter. Taming waves of fear begins with engaging both thoughts and feelings about a subject – reconsidering it from various perspectives. When a person can face rather than succumb to anxiety, asking questions, understanding where it's making sense and where it's throwing her off track, new energy comes. When coupled with an open heart and mind, prayers for fresh insights do not go unanswered.

    Each of the ten commandments offers its own insights into how to deal with life in general and covid in the fall of 2020 in particular. Here's a few of my ideas:

• Telling people not to take God's name in vain is another way of saying to avoid the unfiltered expression of emotion. Feelings come and go; one does have a choice about how one considers them and if/when to represent them. Growing up begins here.
• Telling folks to honor their parents is another way of saying to maintain ties with family. Family is a huge resource for living into the challenges of life. Family members can provide many views on any situation and add to one's capacity to see things more clearly.
• Not coveting what your neighbor has – house, partner, or clothes, even – is another way of saying to remember who you are. Getting caught up in another's life, envying what they have, is the fast road to losing your own self.

     Losing and finding oneself is part of becoming an adult. In the stormy seas of 2020, the ten commandments provide a framework for managing oneself more maturely: an adaptable inner guidance system of a sort. Perhaps each person expresses the commandments slightly differently; perhaps families, congregations, and denominations do so also.   

For reflection:

Morning: How can I use the ten commandments for guidance today? What insights do they bring to me?

Evening: When did anxiety creep into my day? How can I think differently about life's challenges?

Psalm 19:8 the precepts of the LORD are right, rejoicing the heart; the commandment of the LORD is clear, enlightening the eyes;

9/27: Exodus 17:1-7 and Psalm 78:1-4, 12-16  •  Ezekiel 18:1-4, 25-32 and Psalm 25:1-9  •  Philippians 2:1-13  •  Matthew 21:23-32

    Just a few verses before this Sunday's gospel reading, Jesus drove the money-changers – a first century version of people making a buck from religion – out of the temple. Now the chief priests and elders are asking him what right he has to come into the temple and upset the applecart, so to speak. Who invited you to the party? Who gave you a say in how things are run?

    I'm reminded of a time when I went home to my mother's, got up early one morning, and began cleaning her kitchen. I moved things around, making for a more efficient use of the space. I tossed out the dated food products, making it easier to access the groceries she used regularly. I cleaned the counters, reducing the amount of clutter. Was my mother pleased with all this effort? You can be sure she was not. Confronting me, she wondered: Whose kitchen is this? Who asked you for help?

    The challenge of watching one's parents decline is a difficult one; and a full exploration of this topic would take a book, at least. But, at its most practical level, and for purposes of this conversation, I had trespassed. I had failed to see the kitchen as a symptom of my mother's loneliness and had instead pursued a quick fix to shore up my own feelings about her decline. I had not engaged the real problem with her. I had violated my mother's agency in her own home.

    The chief priests and the elders are accusing Jesus of the same things: trespassing, violating their agency over their temple. Jesus tries to tell them that this is not their kitchen, so to speak. The temple is everyone's. He tells a story of two sons, asked by their father to go work in the vineyards. One says he won't go, but later changes his mind, and completes the task. The other says he will and then never follows through. The point that actions speak louder than words is clear. More basically, though, the story is about responsibility for the vineyard and responsibilities to one another.

    Getting clear about one's responsibilities – what is, and isn't, one's work – can be a challenge in life. Getting clear about one's shared responsibilities can also be hard: how does a person understand her part in a cooperative venture?

    Well, it depends on how one sees the problem. In the text, Jesus had mentioned John the Baptist, who had reframed the problem of the Israelites from a political issue with the Romans to the need for repentance for all the people. It was a call for humility, for seeing one's own part in the problems. It was a last call for the religious leaders to wake up and see the reality of their situation, a last call which they failed to heed, leading to the complete destruction of the temple in the years ahead.

    From wildfires to covid outbreaks, a lot of destruction Is occurring these days. Something has gotten in the way of our ability to cooperate and engage our huge capacity for creativity.  The anxiety around covid has served to heighten fears already in place, keeping us from being able to think clearly. More than that, the worry is keeping us from dialogue about the problems and a willingness to engage them. Mired in helplessness, blaming each other, seems to be our strong suit. Not only that, we seem unable to face the basic questions. Whose vineyard is this earth, which we all inhabit? How can we cooperate as a species for the benefit of all? Who is talking a good game but shirking the responsibility? Who is showing up?

    Overturning the tables of the moneychangers in the temple was in many ways an extension of earlier choices made by Jesus. He had already broken strict sabbath laws to heal the sick. He'd already stood up to the Pharisees regarding their tithing of herbs while neglecting the poor. In general, over his lifetime, he had declined to focus his energy on the legal requirements of Judaism to move towards the broader concepts of justice and mercy. In the end, he is crucified for these choices – killed for being true to himself and his own principles. It's the choice available to everyone, every day.

For reflection:

Morning: How can I engage the problems I will face today? When might helplessness be avoided?  

Evening: When did I trespass today? What principles did I fail to own?

Psalm 78:16 He made streams come out of the rock, and caused waters to flow down like rivers.

9/20: Exodus 16:2-15; Psalm 148; Philippians 1:21-30; Matthew 20:1-16

    At first glance, this week's readings are a bit of a hodgepodge of material. The Exodus reading is abruptly ended, about 2/3 of the way through the actual story. The Philippians passage sets up the problem but stops short of the encouraging words ahead. And the story Jesus tells in Matthew is, well, (can I say this?) not his most compelling. However, each of the readings contains a description of the quick spread of reactivity in a group when anxiety is up. This is an important process to think about..

    To begin, let's look at Exodus. Moses and his brother Aaron have led the Hebrew people across the Red Sea and into the wilderness, fleeing their status as slaves in Egypt. They've successfully left the country, everyone intact, but there's a new problem: hunger. Back in Egypt, someone was feeding them, and the people begin reminiscing about how good they had it. Next, they begin criticizing their leaders, blaming their leaders for the food shortage and for bringing them to this desolate spot. Here, Moses and Aaron hand the people back their agency, pointing out that they had all left Egypt based on the principle of following the LORD.

    Next is the Philippians passage. Paul is writing a letter to the community in Philippi, which is facing persecution and suffering for their beliefs. Possibly to their surprise, Paul suggests that they see it as their good fortune to be allowed the opportunity to suffer for the faith!

    Finally, the Matthew passage. Jesus tells a story about a boss who takes time to find unemployed people, hire them close to the end of the day, and pay them the same wage as those who had worked all day. The people who had worked all day grumble, seeing this as unfair, although they had agreed to the wage at the beginning of the day.

    The blaming behavior of the Israelites, the fear of the Philippians, and the quick anger at a suspected unfairness of the full-day workers in the Matthew story are all typical human behaviors:

• Finding someone to blame – identifying a causal agent – is sometimes useful, as when a rustle in the bushes means a lion is there. But when applied to complex situations, it creates more problems than it solves. For the Israelites, the difficulty of getting organized to find food was related to their many years of enslavement and consequent lack of agency in solving their own problems. Blaming Moses was easy, but it kept them from seeing the real problem.
• Similarly, fear among the Philippians may have been keeping them from seeing what Paul could see. Paul, a veteran at suffering for the faith, apparently found it not only a necessary aspect of living according to his beliefs, but also a way of growth. Instead of fearing what life might bring, the Philippians would be more prepared for the dangers ahead by seeing them as a way to test themselves and grow into what mattered to them.
• Finally, the sense of injustice among the day laborers was interfering with their capacity to see the relative plight of others. Our brains still function as though we humans were in the hunter-gatherer groups in which we evolved. In these smaller group settings, each person's capacity and contribution were carefully monitored and maximized each day through a cooperative group process. These same processes fail us in larger, more hierarchical systems. For example, in this story, the landowner had to seek out those lacking work, which would not have been necessary, back in the (hunter-gatherer) day! These days, seeing what the other is up against takes some thoughtfulness.

    Human emotions drive many automatic behaviors. Relationship processes can serve to spread emotions quickly among a group. The person who can wonder about their reactions – blaming, fear, and anger, to name a few – has a chance to use the underlying energy while letting go of the immaturity involved.  Leading others out of a wilderness – whether it's a desert in 1200 BCE or the cruelties of 2020 – begins here. In the end, no one can control whether she will be paid fairly, or persecuted, or face hunger. What she can control is what she does with her life each day.  

Reflections:

Morning: In what ways do I function as a good leader? What might stir up my reactivity today?  

Evening: Where did I have energy in my day?

Psalm 145:9b The compassion of the Lord is over all his works.